Rebecca's Lost Journals by Lisa Renee Jones

 In this stand alone collection connected to the Best Selling Inside Out Series, you meet Rebecca Mason, the intriguing woman who penned an erotic journal that changed everyone’s life it touched. This is her story, in her words.....

Rebecca’s Lost Journals.....

Rebecca Mason has known heartache and sorrow in her life, losing everyone she loves. She’s on her own in San Francisco, lost in every way, until she dares to make the decision to chase her dream of working in the art world. It is then that he meets a rich, seductively powerful man who will become the Master she never knew she wanted and change her life forever. He will lead her on a dark, passionate journey where pain is pleasure and pleasure is pain, and where every limit she once had is no more. In this man, she will find solace to her pain, an escape from the ache inside her. And in him, she will discover a darkness she may never escape.

Bonus Story included:

Master Undone in his POV...

I told him goodbye, and I will not call him. I know if I do, it will be my undoing, and I'll once again be caught up in his spell. I will once again be . . . lost.

In her private journals, Rebecca laid bare her soul, revealing her obsession for the one man whose erotic demands captivated her imagination--and enslaved her forever. Now, with Rebecca no longer in his life "he" is lost, questioning everything he thought he knew about himself and about control he holds in such high regard. One women will reach out to heal him and then turn away, leaving him haunted. She is nothing he thought he wanted and somehow everything he needs. He tells himself to forget her but he cannot escape his desire for her. He has to have more..

"Have you ever met someone who you immediately knew could change your life? I've heard about this happening, but I never experienced anything near it until tonight."

As per Lisa Renee Jones, these books should be read after If I Were You. As she requested, I did just that. I thoroughly enjoyed If I Were You (review coming soon!) and couldn't wait to read the journals of the mysterious woman we meet in the first book, Rebecca. There are four parts of the journals with the first three coming from Rebecca's writing and POV and the final coming from her "Master".

"But will he belong to me? And why was I afraid to ask? Probably because, deep down, I know the answer...and I don't want to accept it. This powerful man will never belong to anyone."

Rebecca stumbles into a job at an art gallery and also into a man who will bring her into his BDSM lifestyle. She will want far more than that, yet knows, deep down she will never get more. I loved how although the journals follow Rebecca's journey into the BDSM lifestyle, the books are more about her feelings of the lifestyle and her Master than the actual rituals and actions that happen to her in the lifestyle. I hope that makes sense. There was just so much depth into her mind that I felt sometimes I was truly just reading someone's personal diary and I felt like I was intruding. I will say the beginning for me was a bit choppy and I didn't get into the journal type writing. That changed somewhere along the way although I cannot pinpoint exactly where it happened. I thoroughly enjoyed all three of them with each journal getting better. I would definitely recommend reading these whether or not you read the series also. They are thought provoking and so personal.

"My thumb is always on the pulse of everything that happens around me-or so I thought. For the first time since college I'm not sure if that's true. I'm not sure it was ever true, and I don't know where that leaves me. I don't know who that makes me."

Ahhhh and then we get to the final novella, The Master Undone. Finally the mystery revolving around Rebecca is solved and it is a shocker! I literally gasped out loud. While this one can be read with the journals, I feel it would be a lot better after reading If I Were You as it revolves so closely to that book. I loved seeing the Master come unglued and so unsure of himself. While I found him to be an arrogant jerk for most of the rest of the books to this point, this novella showed his vulnerable side. The only downside to this one is I am not quite sure of the time frame. I do not know if this is happening at the same time as If I Were You or if this one is in between the first book and the second, Being Me. I guess maybe that is the author's intent-to have us wanting and needing more. I know I sure do and I will be starting Being Me as soon as my schedule allows as I have to know now. I am certainly hoping one of the future books (or hopefully one that is already written) delves more deeply into the Master's mind and also goes into more detail with the Rebecca mystery. I would definitely have to say these are a bit of a mind f*ck as I am going crazy right now trying to figure it all out. Well done Lisa Renee Jones, Bravo!